Ramblings 2: Rivers and Barriers

It was mentioned to me that emotion acts as a reward, that it is necessary to find out about the self. That some people, through traumatic or trying experiences, learn to control emotions, not suppress control but control.

I have a different viewpoint. Best probable described by an analogy... though I am still working on this...

Imagine a river. There is a boulder in the river. Slowly the river can wear down this boulder, sometimes the river rages and breaks off chunks. The river can be seen as reshaping the boulder, refining it, uncovering different facets.

Think of the river as emotion. The boulder as your SELF. I think how ever the end result is that the river will wear down the boulder until it is a pebble. Shaping the boulder into something into something else. A boulder, to a rock to a pebble to a grain of sand... scattered across miles.

You can say that this is good we aren't meant to be the same always we need to grow.

So the analogy doesn't work so great... maybe... here is a little more.

I don't believe the Self is meant to be scattered, to become fragmented and spread out. The self is supposed to be a Centre, the thing in you that defines you and is your core and that shapes everything else about you.

I think that instead of a boulder we should be a..... permeable "barrier", like a net (not meant for catching) for lack of another description.

We should let emotion run through us, revel in it, feel it, but the Self is not altered by the emotion.

The Self sees, feels, or whatever you wish to say the emotion. Understands it, appreciates it and learns from it but still remains the self...

You either bend or break.